Au revoir.

31st March 2010 -

I'm afraid I have some bad news.. I won't be doing any more blogs until the 21st of April because my internet is going off soon and doesn't come back until the 21st. Just thought I'd let anyone who actually reads my blog know; although I'll probably find a way to visit my blog, I won't be posting for a while. But I hope you all have a great Easter, and hopefully I'll have lots to write about when I get back, have fun!

Pâques.

29th March 2010 -

I'm really looking forward to the easter holidays, I've decided I'm going to do lots of fun things, as usually in the holidays, I don't have anything to do and I find myself actually wanting to go back to school, I know, it's not normal in the slightest. But I think I'm actually going to have a fun filled holiday, oh yeah! Although this Friday - when it's a bank holiday I might add - I have to work, which I'm not really too happy about to be honest as it's going to be a really busy day, plus when everybody else is out having fun, I'll be stuck at work bored, and then on the saturday, when everyone is at work, I'll be stuck at home bored. Eugh. But hey, at least I get paid more, which means I get more money for the fun filled holidays and so I'll hopefully get to do more. Can't wait!

Dédié à Lauren Parker.

27th March 2010 -

I just thought I'd do a blog to show a very special friend, just how important she is to me. Now we've had our ups and downs, who hasn't, but this girl is more like my sister than my best friend, she knows everything about me and we know we'll be there for each other through thick and thin; we laugh at the craziest of things, things that other people don't find funny or don't understand, I have so many crazy memories with her and I will never forget any of them! I know sometimes I take her for granted, which I don't even realise I do, and sometimes I can be a little mean (even though I'm obviously joking) but she knows I love her lots, and I don't know what I'd do without her, I probably wouldn't be who I am today if it wasn't for her, and I hope were going to be best friends forever, and if not, then that will be a very sad time for me, because she's basically family to me now.

Dédié à Ryan Clark.

23rd March 2010 -

Summer! Oh my goodness! I can't even wait for it to arrive. I hate winter. Summer is amazing. I think i can safely say that the only thing I hate about summer are the flies and insects, they're annoying little fuckers, apart from that I love summer. Like the fact that even though I've started to get hayfever, I still love the smell of flowers and freshly cut grass. I love going for picnics and long walks to places I've never been. I like going outside or walking on the grass with no shoes on and it's nice and warm. I like going out in the garden at night when it's still light and reading my book or just sitting with my Ipod on and thinking about things. I like walking around, not having to wear a coat and instead wearing shorts, dresses and skirts. I love going to the park and being silly on the swings and acting like a five year old. I like wearing shorts for bed instead of jumpers and jackets. I like the feel of sand between my toes on holiday. I like having BBQ's all the time with family and friends. I like staying out late and not having to worry about it getting too dark. I love the smell of sea water on the beach, even though I can't swim. I like planning long trips or days out and not having to worry about the rain. (But I also love the small bits of rain that come in the middle of summer). I like taking millions of pictures and then looking back at them thinking "what the hell was I doing there?!" but over all I just love spending summer with the people I love, and I don't think any of the things I love about summer would be useful unless I had somebody to share it with. I really can't wait for summer, this year is going to kick last years arse.. no doubt about it.

Peu importe.

12th March 2010 -

“Stop calling, stop calling, I don’t want to think anymore, I left my head and my heart on the dance floor” I like this song quote, don’t ask me why, but I’d actually really love to do this right now, which is why I can’t wait until Jackie’s party, and I don’t care if I get drunk and make a fool of myself, because I’m going to make sure I enjoy myself whilst doing it, and so as long as I have fun, nobody else matters right?

Been feeling really, weird lately, not sure why, I just find myself thinking of random things or old memories and then it ends up putting me in a bad mood, not good. Plus I’ve been feeling really annoyed with people lately, very annoyed with my family in fact, they seem to be annoying me 24/7. I know my family are great, but if I’m completely honest, I sometimes feel like I don’t even have a proper family, and I know that must sound absolutely terrible, but let me explain. My dad works from 8 until around half 5ish, which is quite normal for any parent, but then he’s on the computer until like, 2 in the morning? And so if I go out after school, and say I get in around 10, that means I hardly see him because I end up going to bed at around 11. Then there’s my mum, who to be fair, I think I see too much of, don’t get me wrong, It’s lovely to be able to say I see my mum all the time, but I like to have my alone time, and if I’ve had a bad day and want to just chill out, it doesn’t really help to have my mum fussing around me asking what’s wrong or asking why I’m “mardy“, plus when I actually want to spend time with her, she doesn’t seem like she even cares about spending time with me, it’s really annoying to be honest. Also, both of my parents seem like they don’t care about anything, I often hear people saying things like “my mum and dad won’t let me go out tonight because they think I should be revising” or “my mum keeps nagging me to get my homework/coursework done” I just feel really annoyed, because my parents don’t really care, and although on one side, this is great because I can just do things at my own pace and I don’t have people annoying me, it would be nice for them to show they care once in a while. I did used to have a good relationship with both my parents, I would have fun with my dad and then I’d go shopping with my mum and we’d watch TV together, We even used to sit together to eat dinner, but now it’s all different, we have dinner at different times and hardly see each other, but I cant say anything to them about it because my mum would just go “oh stop moaning” and my dad probably wouldn’t say anything at all. Eugh.