14th November 2009 -
Over the past few weeks, I have come to realise, that some people really do need someone in their life to be there for them, and to have that unconditional love, I am one of those people. I can now safely say that I have someone in my life who I want to be with forever, I couldn’t stand being with anybody else, and it breaks my heart to think of him as “just a friend”. But I have also come to realise, that to be in a relationship, you have to think of the other person, it’s like having a baby, it’s no longer just you, you have someone else to think about, someone else's thought and feelings to take into consideration, so the things you do in your life, now also affect somebody else, and you have to be very careful when making decisions, you can't be selfish, but you can't be too giving, the balance has to be right, else it could ruin everything. At this moment in time, my life is complicated, I am going through a patch, where I have everything I could ever want, and it has been fantastic, I have already had some of the most amazing experiences of my life, but over the past few days, it’s already started to get messed up, and I already feel like my amazing guy is slipping away from me. I am the sort of person, who when in a sticky situation, I can usually be quite good at finding a way to sort things out, but this is all happening faster than I am having time to process it and find a way around it, and I have been taken out of my comfort zone. I have only known this amazing guy for around two months, and I already love him more than I can even imagine, I love him so much that it hurts to even think about loosing him, and if I could, I would tell him this as much as possible, and in every way imaginable. He is my life now, I thank him so much for everything hes done for me, and I know that I am so lucky to have finally found him, I just hope that I can hold onto him long enough for him to realise this.
Over the past few weeks, I have come to realise, that some people really do need someone in their life to be there for them, and to have that unconditional love, I am one of those people. I can now safely say that I have someone in my life who I want to be with forever, I couldn’t stand being with anybody else, and it breaks my heart to think of him as “just a friend”. But I have also come to realise, that to be in a relationship, you have to think of the other person, it’s like having a baby, it’s no longer just you, you have someone else to think about, someone else's thought and feelings to take into consideration, so the things you do in your life, now also affect somebody else, and you have to be very careful when making decisions, you can't be selfish, but you can't be too giving, the balance has to be right, else it could ruin everything. At this moment in time, my life is complicated, I am going through a patch, where I have everything I could ever want, and it has been fantastic, I have already had some of the most amazing experiences of my life, but over the past few days, it’s already started to get messed up, and I already feel like my amazing guy is slipping away from me. I am the sort of person, who when in a sticky situation, I can usually be quite good at finding a way to sort things out, but this is all happening faster than I am having time to process it and find a way around it, and I have been taken out of my comfort zone. I have only known this amazing guy for around two months, and I already love him more than I can even imagine, I love him so much that it hurts to even think about loosing him, and if I could, I would tell him this as much as possible, and in every way imaginable. He is my life now, I thank him so much for everything hes done for me, and I know that I am so lucky to have finally found him, I just hope that I can hold onto him long enough for him to realise this.
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