Noël.

24th December 2009 -

CHRISTMAS EVE!! Seen as though it’s christmas eve I thought I’d give you something to make you chuckle..

The night before christmas throughout the house, we were all fucked, even the mouse. Dad at the brothel, mum with uncle Frank, I’d settled down for a nice slow wank. Outside the house I heard a right clatter, I let go of my cock to see whats the matter. Out on the lawn I saw a big dick, I knew right away it was old St Nick. He came down the chimney like a bat out of hell. The big fat fucker, I think he fell. He filled all our stockings with sweets and beer, and a big rubber cock for my brother the queer. He rose up the chimney with a thunderous fart, the big fat twat blew the house apart. He swore and he cursed as he rode out of sight, shouting, I’ll be back next year, have a hell of a night.

Merry Christmas!

Chinois.

22nd December 2009 -

For some reason I thought it was the 21st of December, ahh well.

Had a really good day today, went to Wok 1 (Chinese) for Shelby’s birthday, and it was a lot of fun. Last night I wrote a mini story thing (got the idea from my friend Carley, so thankyou dear) and I thought it was pretty crap, but she’s just told me she thinks it’s really good, so im going to share it with you..

I hadn’t seen him in days, so when the sky started dropping those cold, white flakes, I knew I just had to call him. I ran into the park, it’s where we always met, by the old oak tree, it always looked gorgeous in any weather, just like him. As I got closer, I could see him standing there, his hair sticking up wildly from the dampness of the snow flakes, his beautiful blue eyes staring back at me, like I was the only person that mattered. I needed to get to him quicker, so I ran. He picked me up and swung me round, I always got a tingling sensation whenever his skin touched mine, I pressed my body to his and breathed in his smell. Surprisingly, he smelt even better in the mix of the snow and the smell of the park. He looked at me again with those sparkling eyes, I got so caught up in the moment that I didn’t even realise he was leaning in to kiss me, I jumped a little when his soft, cold lips touched mine, the butterflies in my stomach were almost too much to handle. This was one of those moments I knew I would always remember.

We walked hand in hand, talking about anything and everything, I loved the sound of his voice, I could have listened to him all day long. We walked and talked all the way to his house. He opened the door and it smelt exactly like him, which is why when he swiftly lifted me off my feet, and I was wrapped up safely in his strong arms, I wrapped my arms around his neck, and decided this was the moment I had been waiting for. We started our usual routine, he took me up the stairs, into his bedroom, laid me on the bed, and as usual, he started to pull away, but I decided this time, we had waited long enough, and this time, I needed more. I crushed my lips to his, he automatically realised what I was doing, and instead of him pulling away from me like i expected, he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me closer to him, our hearts pounding as we both realised what was about to happen. He laid his body on top of me, his skin was warm, like the sun, this felt like the moment in the park, but so much more amazing. By this point, I thought I would have felt more nervous, but I wasn‘t, because it felt right, and as he started to peel the damp clothes from my body, I just knew this was meant to be. He was the one that this was meant to happen with, and although I had been putting it off for so long, I knew I was now doing the right thing. We were adult enough and in love enough, that I knew the time had come for us to show each other just how much we adored each other, and although I didn’t think this was possible, apparently it was..

Hope it’s good, please let me know what you think and tell me if you think I should carry it on? Carley thinks I should, but I’m not sure, thankyouu!

Neige.

17th December 2009 -

I wasn’t going to do a blog today, but it’s the first day of snow, and so I decided that this is a very special moment and it should therefore be treasured. I did a snow angel on the grass in my back garden, it went terribly wrong, and I got snow all over my back and hair.. Nice. I’m feeling really really Christmassy now it’s snowing, plus I went shopping earlier and there’s decorations everywhere, so festive! Finally got all my christmas shopping done! Now hopefully, the next time I will have to go to town will be in 2010 when I hit the January sales! Woop woop! I say this every year, but I really am going to make 2010 the best year, and this time I think it may actually happen. I’ve got prom, the last day of school, my sixteenth birthday, plus I’ve now got an amazingly gorgeous boy to spend time with, how could it not be the best year ever?

Vie.

16th December 2009 -

Well, because I felt that my last two blogs were kind of interesting? I decided to search for something along the lines of what I last talked about, and found a blog post called “Principles Of Life” and so I decided I’m going to chat non-stop about it, because I’m just so interesting..

“1. Winning isn't everything but wanting to win is.” Ok, so basically this is just saying that as long as you try, and as long as you set your standards high, it doesn’t matter if you win or not. “2. You would achieve more, if you don't mind who gets the credit.” Not fully sure what this means to be quite honest. “3. When everything else is lost, the future still remains.” So as long as you’ve got your future, you can’t give up on life, because something amazing could happen and turn your world around. “4. Don't fight too much or the enemy will know your art of war.” So keep your enemies close, just not too close. “5. The only job you start at the top is when you dig a grave.” Well that’s nice.. So that just means that to get to the top, you always have to start at the bottom. “6. If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for everything.” If you don’t have the strength to at least try for something, then you’ll have no strength for anything. “7. If you do little things well, you'll do big ones better.” Always try to start with small things, because once you get enough practice, then the big things will seem easier. “8. Only thing that comes to you without effort is old age.” Everything you want in life, you have to work for it, the only things that are given to you without effort are the things that you don’t particularly want. “9. You won't get a second chance to make a first impression.” Make sure you show your true colours when you first meet a person, because surprises aren’t always good. “10. Only those who do nothing do not make mistakes.” Nobody wants to make mistakes, but you learn from them, you have to take those risks in life, because if they go good then that’s brilliant and if they go bad, then you learn from it and move on. “11. Never take a problem to your boss unless you have a solution.” There’s no point in asking somebody else for help with your problem if you don’t have a clue what to do yourself. “12. If you are not failing, you're not taking enough risks.” Failing is all about growth, when you fail, it shouldn’t make you give up, it should make you all the more determined to try again, and life is about taking those risks. “13. If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.” I think this may be trying to sound sarcastic? It’s saying that just because you don’t succeed in something, doesn’t mean you should just give up straight away. “14. Those who don't make mistakes usually don't make anything.” this is basically like most of the other ones, you have to learn from mistakes. “15. There are two kinds of failures: Those who think and never do, and those who do and never think.” If you think and never do, then it shows you don’t feel you have the will power to be able to do something, and you need to take those risks. If you do and never think then something is bound to go wrong for you because your not thinking things through clearly, and you’ll end up making too many mistakes, you might even make the same mistake more than once. “16. Pick battles big enough to matter, small enough to win.” Don’t make things too difficult for yourself, but also, don’t pick something so small that your not interested if you win or lose. “17. Change your thoughts and you change your world.” If you change the way you think of something, it’s most likely going to change your view on the world. “18. There are two kinds of fools in this world.: Those who give advice and those who don't take it.” If you always give advice then it’s most likely that your going to end up being there for everyone, and nobody will be there for you. If you don’t take advice then you might end up making a decision that you will badly regret or that will change your life completely. Yeah this blog is pretty crap actually, but never mind.

Garçons.

14th December 2009 -

Well, I did my blog yesterday on that Facebook group I found (“35 Things A Guy Probably Doesn't Know”) and I said I’d do today’s blog on the other group I found “35 Things A Girl Probably Doesn't Know”, and so I decided to do it as I really quite enjoyed writing my blog yesterday.

“1. Guys are more emotional than you think.” I think most guys are more emotional than they let on, they just don’t want to seem like a pussy, which is wrong because being emotional isn’t always a bad thing. “2. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.” See, it’s the little things like that, that show you all care. “3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.” Well girls go crazy over a guys smile just as much, so that’s not really hard to believe. “4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.” Yeah I think that’s about the same for girls as well. “5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.” I don’t think a girl would really talk about their ex-boyfriends, they may mention them once or twice, but we don’t do it to upset you, we actually try to go to great lengths to make sure we never upset you, and we just can‘t believe how we could become so lucky as to finally find someone who’s perfect for us. “6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.” Well, yeah, but that’s sort of impossible, it’s the same with girls, we want to be the only girl you talk to, but obviously that’s impossible, what would your mother think!?. “7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.” Yeah I think this is quite important in a relationship, saying it too much can make it less special, but not saying it enough can make the other person feel unwanted. “8. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.” (This is basically the same as number one, so im going to skip past it and hope you didn‘t notice). “9. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!.. uh...never mind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.” This is also what girls do, well I especially do this. I think about things too much and then make it out to sound a lot worse than it actually is, so its reassuring to know that guys do this too. “10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.” Ha haa, I think I know this all too well. “11. Guys are very open about themselves.” I’ve only recently started to notice this, guys are a lot more open about things than girls, which is weird as you’d expect it to be the other way around?. “12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.” Although this may be true, I feel that I have to give advice to a guy if he has a problem, especially if it’s someone I like, I hate having that feeling of being helpless, and although I’m not too good with the whole, advice giving thing, I still prefer to try. We only do this because we care. “13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.” Ive heard this quite a lot, I think in some cases this is true, but sometimes a guy and a girl can tease each other and not like each other? But I think that comes down to how the teasing is, if they’re just friends, then they shouldn’t be teasing each other in a flirtatious kind of way, else things could become complicated. “14. Guys love you more than you love them.” Not always true, I think in most relationships it’s better to love each other a certain amount, else the relationship becomes kind of rocky. “15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.” I think it’s good that this is true, at least then we know how to tell if a guy really like us or not. “16. No matter how much some guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.” Yeah, but even if this is true, sometimes it would feel really good to just slap you for talking about boobs all the time. “17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.” Ha haa! Well that’s really good to know, I suppose I’d better keep that in mind.. “18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.” yeah your not the only ones, we do that as well, probably more than you think. “19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.” Well, why? Doing something stupid isn’t really the end of the world, yeah sometimes people do stupid things but it doesn’t really matter, it’s probably one of the reasons we like you, doing stupid things (depending on what is meant by stupid) is sometimes kind of cute. “20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.” Ahh I have had way too many moments where this has happened, it’s quite amusing, not at the time obviously, but afterwards. “21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.” But how do we know your not just lieing?. “22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me.”” People say this about girls too, but I’ve never really known this to be true, I think sometimes it can be true, but only when you need to be shown that the other person cares enough to not ignore you and stay with you anyway. “23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.” I think I can safely say that most girls would listen to a guy if he was talking serious anyway, yes it doesn’t happen that often, which is why we find it important that we listen to you. “24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.” Ha, I actually do this a lot, but okay, I shall listen to this and just politely say thankyou when this is said to me. “25.When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.” Same with a girl, usually were thinking about how gorgeous you are, either that or were wondering how we got lucky enough to have someone like you. “26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.” Yeah, so have girls. “27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.” I’m not a snob anyway, far from it I’d say, I try to be polite, but I won’t pretend I’m something I’m not. “28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.” I think it’s probably about the same really, we talk (and think) about you a hell of a lot. “29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are mad and confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.” There is only one thing I can really say to this, we think exactly the same about you. “30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.” Oh my god, I would actually really love to read a guys mind for a day, I would find out so much. “31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.” Yeah, I’ve always known this really, I don’t think anybody is strong enough to handle every little thing on their own, no matter what they say. “32. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn’t mean he represents ALL of us.” Yeah and I hate it when people come to this assumption, but although deep down we know this is true, it’s still hard to just forget everything that all guys have done to us just because you tell us your different, we’ve heard it too many times before. “33. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.” I’m so glad this one is true, muahaha!. 34. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.” I suppose this could be true, unless some guys are ticklish around their necks, then they wouldn’t really like having their neck rubbed. “35. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.” Ahh, I have sacrificed my sleep and health way too many times, it’s only ever been worth it once. Ok, this was also quite a fun blog to do, very long! I’m so proud of myself. I think I might try and do more blogs like this one..

Filles.

13th December 2009 -

I thought, that because yesterday (or whenever it was) I did a blog about a random fact I found, today I found two groups on Facebook, they were called “35 Things A Guy Probably Doesn't Know” and “35 Things A Girl Probably Doesn't Know”. And I was reading through them all, and became very interested by how some girls have different views on things, plus I learnt some things about boys which I didn’t really know. So I’m going to go through them all, let the boys know which of these girl “facts” are true, and which only apply to some girls, just because I like being helpful.

“1. Girls are very self-conscious when it comes to their looks.” quite true, I think most guys probably know this anyway? It’s pretty obvious to be honest. “2. Every girl thinks she's pretty in one way or another. They just won't admit it.” hmm, yeah I suppose this is quite true, I think most girls have days when they feel pretty, and then some days where they don’t feel as pretty, but that’s quite normal, and they won’t let guys know this because they don’t want to seem like they love themselves. “3. Girls will save instant message conversations when they like a guy and just re-read it and smile occasionally.” Ha, yeah this ones true, I keep chat logs and sometimes like to re-read those cute conversations that made me smile. “4. Girls hate it when other girls flirt.” Well obviously this ones true, I think most people would hate someone flirting with the person they like?. “5. Every girl fantasizes about her wedding.” This one really isn’t true at all, I think to some girls, the idea of marriage sometimes scares us more than it scares the guys. Probably because when we hear the word “marriage” we think of our mothers.. All those wrinkles.. eugh!. “6. A girl's wounds can last a while.“ I’m not quite sure if this one is talking about actual wounds or if it means when a girl’s heart is broken, but for the heart break one, I think girls and boys are probably about the same when it comes to that. “7. A girl will cry over you a lot more than you think.“ Hm, this depends, I think sometimes guys can upset a girl and not even realise what they’ve done wrong, and so yeah this statement would be correct, but on the other hand, the girl could just be over reacting?. “8. Girls love guys with sensitive sides.” Ahh this is soo true! I hate it when a guy acts like he’s not scared of anything, it’s quite immature, if a guy has a sensitive side, it proves he can show his feelings more, and therefore will be able to open up more, plus I think this shows that the guy is more loveable and isn’t afraid to show his true feelings. “9. Girls love confidence. Not cockiness.” Ahh yes this is also quite true, it’s really very annoying when a guy is acting too confident, especially if he acts like he can get any girl he wants, if he’s joking, then that’s alright, but its so pathetic when he’s serious. “10. Girls find it a lot more romantic if you just fall asleep with them, holding them in your arms rather than having a night of hot kinky sex.” Ha haa! Well I’ve never had hot kinky sex, but I think this is probably true, it is really quite lovely to just fall asleep in the arms of someone you love, it also makes us feel rather safe, like nothing can hurt us as long as we’re in your arms. “11. When a girl is mean to you, she usually does it cos she loves you!” yeah I guess this is true, but she may be doing it because you’ve either done something wrong and she wants to hurt you and so she does it playfully so that you don’t realise she actually wants to slap you, or she’s doing it to flirt with you because she does actually like you and wants to give you a hint. “12. When a girl is crying, she feels a lot safer if you pull her close and tell her that everything is going to be alright.” Yeah this is true, it’s always nice to have someone to cuddle you and tell you everything will be okay when your upset, it feels safe. “13. Guitarists are sexy.” ..well, if you say so. “14. Girls always daydream about you, they just dont show it.” Yeah this is true, I actually often find myself daydreaming and sometimes I don’t even realise I’m doing it, it’s quite embarrassing though when you realise your smiling to yourself and everyone is looking at you like you’re a crazy person. “15. The smallest gestures, the smallest stares, and the smallest statements could make a girl's year.” well I wouldn’t go as far to say it makes a girls year, although it would probably make the girls day, maybe couple of days, but small gestures, stares and statements really do mean a lot, it’s the little things that show you care. “16. When a guy says something really sentimental, girls will remember it forever.” Yeah this is true, although remember to only say these types of things if you actually mean them, else when the girl finds out you didn’t mean it, it might take her a while or she’ll find it hard to trust you/another boy again. “17. Girls have a thing for guys who have messy sex hair.” Well, I’m not sure about this one, personally I find this rather true, but I think this may only be true for some people, for others it could just be seen as messy hair, which isn’t always a good thing. “18. Usually, when a girl is sarcastically mean to you, it means they're attracted to you, but are afraid that they'll be showing too much.” hm, sometimes, although it could just be that the girl has quite a sarcastic humour and is just playing with you. “19. Girls go crazy when a guy smells good, usually the natural scent is amazing.” ahh, so true! I love it when a guy smells nice, sometimes this I caused by deodorant or aftershaves, but after a while the guys natural smell starts to come through anyway, which is always lovely. “20. Girls love it when a guy pulls them close by the waist.” This is true, I’m not sure why, but girls do seem to really like being touched on the waist, I think it could be to do with the closeness? It always feels good. “21. Girls love a sense of humour.” I totally agree! I hate guys who don’t have a sense of humour, they’re so boring! Plus I try to be funny a lot, and if they don’t have a sense of humour, they wouldn’t even try to humour me and act like I’m funny, which would make them seem quite stuck up. “22. Girls find it awfully attractive when guys wear just a white t-shirt and jeans and yet they happen to look awesome in it.” Yeah, I’ve never noticed that before actually, it always looks good on a guy when they wear a white t-shirt and jeans, quite sexy if you don’t mind me saying. “23. When girls are online, they want the guy to instant message them first.” Well, not really, I don’t mind who speaks first as long as I get to talk to them, that’s all that matters. “25. Girls like to be told that they're beautiful, rather than hot, pretty, cute, or sexy. It just gives more meaning.” I suppose this is sort of true, although I think beautiful, pretty and cute are all okay words to use, hot is just tacky and sexy is sort of in-between good and bad, it’s good because it’s saying that you find her sexy even if she’s wearing something that isn’t meant to look sexy, but it’s bad because she may start to feel a bit weird about what she wears, like if she wears a dress, she might be thinking that if you think she looks sexy in a jumper and jeans, what will you think of her in a dress?. “26. Girls love guys who know how to dance.” er, im not too sure, I don’t even know how to dance myself, so I wouldn’t really expect him to be able to dance, as long as he doesn’t mind “trying” to dance with me (in other words jumping around and making fools of ourselves) then im happy. “27. A kiss on the neck always feels good.” ahh yes, I love being kissed around the neck area, as long as you don’t turn into a vampire and try eating us, were happy. “28. Girls like boys to be spontaneous.” err, I’m not quite sure what that means, so I’m going to pass on this one. “29. Hugs and kisses must be given at all times.” Yeah sometimes, it’s nice to feel wanted all of the time, although I think kissing and hugging whilst doing something like shopping is probably a no as im sure all the old ladies would be quite put off by this, plus if there’s times like those when you can’t kiss and cuddle, it always feels nicer if you have to wait, it makes you appreciate it more. “30. Girls love to feel special, even though they might not show it, but sometimes boys take it to far and girls start to feel embarrassed.” Hm, I think the first bit is true, it’s always nice to know that someone else finds you special, but I’ve never really felt embarrassed by this, I’ve felt a little embarrassed, but it’s never really been a bad thing. ”31. Guys watching porn is a turn off.” ha haa! Well, sort of, but hey, everyone’s entitled to their own bit of fun I guess?. “32. If a girl really likes you, she will always remember the times she's kissed you, although she wont admit it.” Yeah this is rather true, she might not remember all the little kisses you’ve both had, but she will always remember those most special moments. “33. Girls always count the kisses on texts.“ Well, this can sometimes be true, personally, I don’t always count the kisses on a text, but more is always better. “Girls dont like to wait. So a guy should make a move.” Hm, no I don’t agree with this one, I think the girl has just as much of an opportunity to make the first move, and if she doesn’t then she obviously doesn’t like him as much as she thinks. There’s only 34 facts on here because the 35th wasn’t an actual fact, I think the maker of the group probably ran out of facts to put. I’m quite proud of myself for this blog, it’s my longest one yet, and so on my next blog im going to talk about the other group (“35 Things A Girl Probably Doesn't Know”) and so I’ll probably be doing a long blog tomorrow as well.

Funny Fait.

12th December 2009 -

Ok, I’ve been really bored today as ive mostly been in bed all day, even though I was meant to go to town, I decided to go tomorrow as it wont be as busy, plus I just couldn’t be bothered to get up. So instead of going out into the real world, I decided to search for random facts on Google, and whilst doing this, I found one that made me laugh.. “If a man goes on a seven-day trip, he’ll pack five days worth of clothes and will wear some things twice; if a woman goes on a seven-day trip she’ll pack 21 outfits because she doesn’t know what she’ll feel like wearing each day“. This is actually rather true, but also very smart. I once went on a 14-day holiday and only packed about 9 days worth of clothes, plus most of the things I’d packed, I didn’t really like anyway, and so I had to do a lot of shopping - not necessarily a bad thing - although it meant I became a shopping nerd, plus I didn’t get to go to the beach as much which I was rather disappointed about. And so ever since then, I always seem to take too many clothes with me. And shoes. And make-up.. just to be on the safe side. Obviously.

Relations.

9th December 2009 -

I’ve been staring at this screen for, roughly, about half an hour now, which just shows how I don’t really have much to say today. But I have finally managed to find a topic to base this blog around - well done me eh? - and so I’m just going to ramble on seen as though I’m feeling quite lonely tonight so sorry if none of this makes sense. Earlier I copied a column from a magazine onto my other blog, (www.chloee6.tumblr.com) which was basically talking about how modern women love the whole “bad boy” types. (if you don’t understand what I mean by this, then an example is how, over the past year or so, Robert Pattinson has gone from being known as the geeky looking kid from Harry Potter, to being the “drop dead gorgeous and mysterious” Edward Cullen from Twilight) But to be fairly honest, I still can’t seem to get my head around why women are drawn to these bad boy types, I mean seriously, they’re hardly a knight in shining armour are they? - more like an idiot dressed in tin foil riding on a donkey - and so I decided to do some research (yes I’m that sad). And it took me a good twenty minutes to actually find something useful. This is what I have come across, Lord Byron once wrote "Man's love is of man's life a part; it is woman's whole existence.", now I have never been the type of girl to say that a woman is always going to be “the innocent one” in the relationship, as love apparently means more to a women, meaning she is less likely to do anything to ruin the relationship, where as a man may love a woman, but just not enough to try and work on the relationship. I do not believe this one bit, what I do believe is that, these days, it is politically incorrect to pick out fundamental differences between men and women. Although men may seem to love and leave, this is only because a woman wants so much passion and commitment out of a relationship, that it makes the men look like they couldn’t give a shit, which is seriously not the case. And so, using my research and knowledge, I have come to the conclusion, that women usually tend to go after the bad guys because they like the challenge, when you have a choice, to get given something ordinary that may or may not break down or to fight for something amazing that has a better chance of surviving, it’s usually more likely that the woman is going to set her standards high and go for the best, which may seem wrong, but hey, if your offered an ordinary piece of chocolate cake, and then your offered a piece of chocolate cake with extra chocolate which you may have to pay extra for, you’d be more likely to pay that little bit extra for the better chocolate cake too (please do not ask why I just compared that to chocolate cake).

Passionnant.

8th December 2009 -

Okay, I’m very sorry, I know I have not done a blog in a few days.. Okay four days to be exact. I’m a busy girl you know! Christ sake!.. (It’s actually Ryan’s fault to be fairly honest). I’ve got mock exams ALL week, well except tomorrow, but yesterday I had a maths exam, today I had a history exam (both were TWO hours long which I finished both in about, half the time!) - and I actually revised for the history exam, which makes a change - It was quite a funny exam though, there was a spacker dude sitting behind me who started clapping half way through the exam for no apparent reason, then dropped his money on the floor and when he tried to pick it up, he nearly fell on the floor, I was secretly trying to hide my giggles, it was really very amusing. I am actually quite confident about my history exam, I didn’t understand section B, but I nailed section A (not literally) - and then I have a bunch of other exams some time this week, including another maths and a technology, fun! Chloe is in quite a good mood (Ryan’s fault again =) I have realised I’m actually doing quite a lot this month, I mean, yeah obviously December is a busy month what with christmas and everything, but I’m doing quite a few other things too, including Shelby’s birthday, then christmas eve, christmas and boxing day, and then were having a christmas party, woo! Plus there’s new years and so it should be a very exciting month! And so far it IS a very exciting month which I’m really very happy about as I am determined to finish the year with a bang (in other words make sure its good). Okay, I feel that this is an acceptable amount of writing to do and so I am going to wash my hair as I feel like a scrubber, if you do not feel this is long enough then shut the fuck up and wait until tomorrow when I have enough time to write a REALLY long blog. God.. moaning bastards or what!?

Merci.

4th December 2009 -

I wasn’t going to write a blog for today, but I feel that I have to seen as though today has been a really brilliant day and I know I’m going to want to remember it, and so I am writing a blog! (btw, I figured out something amazing, today has been a great day, it’s the 4th of December, my favourite number and my second favourite month, now is that cool or what!?) Went bowling today, kicked Ryan’s arse but he “refuses to talk about it” ha. I feel so evil. Also found my amazing dress/top thing that I’ve been trying to find in New Look for about a week and so that’s one less thing I have to buy. Gino won I’m A Celebrity which I am very happy about, didn’t want that Kim to win. Eugh. I am finally starting to get into the christmas spirit, bit by bit. I have a mini christmas tree in my room (would be better if it was blue, but whatever) and I’m decorating it at the weekend, yay! Also need to start writing my cards and getting the rest of my presents! So much to buy, think I’ll have to stop going out so much! Argh! Really excited about having our christmas party! Was amazing last year! Plus one very big and exciting thing happened today, I got my gorgeous boy back! WOO! Plus he finally updated his Twitter. With a little help from me obviously. He’s a bit of a weirdo - in a good way - and it’s why I love him lots. Tomorrow I plan to hopefully decorate my tree, and Sunday, I need to go buy my phone, but I don’t want to go by myself, so if I can’t find anybody to go with, I may just have to go some other time. Got mock exams next week, soo not looking forward to them, even though they’re mocks, I know they’re still going to stress me out, and so I’m dreading them, especially the history one, hmm. Guess I’d better find time to “revise”. Great. Oh well. Nothing can ruin my good mood today, eek!

Court.

2nd December 2009 -

Well, I did write a longer blog yesterday than usual, but I still wasn’t satisfied with it, and so today, I’m going to make it as long as humanly possible. I went searching through my “list of blog ideas” and found a few that I may be able to make interesting, and so your getting two or three blogs in one today, just to help my whole “making this as long as humanly possible” plan. For some reason, I have always wanted to write my own book, and I have tried so many times, but I’ve never finished them. I start writing about something, then I just give up when I get bored, and so journalism is probably quite a stupid thing to pick as a career, but I think that one day (hopefully) I will actually get to write my own book, I have no idea what it would be about, but hey, at least I’d be rich. Something else I’ve always wanted to do? Well, I’ve always wanted to go for a walk on the beach, when the suns going down and there’s nobody else around, it might sound corny, but I think that would be really romantic and quite peaceful. I have decided that I don’t think I like children very much, I used to love them, but lately I have come to realise just how annoying most of them are. Earlier I was walking home from school, and I ended up having to walk on the road because there was an army of mothers with about 25 kids all charging towards me, and to be fairly honest I’d rather get ran over than be eaten alive by a pack of hungry children. For some reason, earlier on, I was thinking about when I was in year 7, I realised how shy and quiet I used to be, and how loud I am now. To be honest, I actually don’t know how that happened. Ok it took me about ten minutes just to write those two sentences, I am actually the most boring, un-interesting person I have ever met. Although I’ve never really met myself.. As that’s not really possible.. I don’t think? Oh good god somebody please just shoot me. Actually I’m going to stop typing before I kill myself.

Vrai.

1st December 2009 -

Oh my goodness! It’s the 1st of December already!? Woah that’s gone FAST! And to start the lovely christmas month off, I have become ill. Great. I have the snuffles, I have no energy, I feel tired all the time which also makes me feel dizzy and even faint sometimes, yep, I’m officialy strange. Ok, ok, I know I said I would write a long blog today, but I just do not have the energy.. JOKE! God. Calm down love.. Bloody hell, nearly had a heart attack then didn‘t you? Okay, last night I discovered something that I am now obsessed with, this is Facebook groups. Yes that’s right, I have now turned into one of those people who adds 300 groups (all stating true facts) and never looks at them twice. I’m just THAT cool. But seriously, they are brilliant, nearly every single one of them that I have found is true. For those of you who don’t know what the fuck I’m rambling on about, here’s a couple of examples.. “ I spell Wednesday by saying WED NES DAY” (actually true, sad I know), “I continuously check my fridge for food, expecting some to magically appear” (also true, I know, I know. Sad!) and “I can’t tell funny stories because I crack up laughing before I can finish” (true, but come on, it’s a funny story.. Ok fine. Sad as well.) See! They really are all true! Even if not all of them, but most of them are really very true!

Okay, enough about Facebook groups and more about my day? Sure! Well we had enrichment day today - we don’t have normal lessons, usually we have a particular subject and do different things about it throughout the day - unfortunately for me, today it was maths. All bloody day. Ah how exciting. It was boring as hell, the highlight of the day was the magician dude who guessed I had picked king of hearts out of the pack of cards which I did, woo go magician bloke! Although I’m not quite sure what a magician has to do with maths? But what the heck. Then after school, I went out for a bit (the only reason I went to school in the first place was so I could go out after school. See, the things I do to see amazing people eh?) was chilly as usual, but it has been a really good night, and in future I’m getting wrapped up warm - this would probably include about 20 tops, 6 pairs of trackies, 30 pairs of socks, 5 scarves and about 8 pairs of gloves? (and that’s just to stay a little bit warm) - although I have been wearing my PJ bottoms under my trackies for the past couple of nights and it’s kept my legs quite warm, what a success! Off to wash my hair now because I forgot to do it earlier and if I leave it any later it will look like a bitch in the morning.

Bonne Journée.

30th November 2009 -

Well, today has been eventful. I woke up an hour late, fell down the stairs when trying to find my school shirt, didn’t have breakfast, ended up throwing my mascara at the mirror because it’s crap, then I finally got outside and whats the first thing I do? Yes, stand on a snail, and it crunched.. Nice. Got to Laurens, and she was nice enough to let me use her straightners to sort out my flicky hair. Then we got to school and I remembered we had assembly, such fun. Then English and we had to read that crappy book again. ICT was boring because miss moved Craig away from me so I don’t have anybody to annoy. Maths was really funny, we had a teacher that looked exactly like Ghandi, seriously, I’m not even joking, I couldn’t even understand a word he said, so when he was explaining to me about the work, I was looking at Lauren and trying to laugh out loud. History was quite a good lesson, apart from the gay boy who was sitting in front of me, eugh! (alright I suppose he’s not THAT bad). Then business, which was also alright, but actually seemed to go really quickly today. And after all that, I still managed to have a really good day. Plus I went out for a bit after school which was also very good, haven’t been out properly in about, two weeks? And so even though I was freezing, that annoying gay boy from earlier was keeping me quite lovely and warm, so thankyou very much annoying (and rather good looking) gay boy. Once again this is a very short blog, and once again I do apologise, I know how much you love to hear me rambling on and so tomorrow - or sometime this week - I will make sure to write an extremely long blog - promise!

Détendu.

29th November 2009 -

Haven’t really done much today but it hasn’t bothered me much to be honest, got up this morning after having a rather strange dream. Got dressed and I was ready by one - I know, it’s a miracle. Then I had Sunday dinner and went to the shop to get credit, yes that’s right I have officialy got more credit - with UNLIMITED texts, yay! - although I think my top up card is broken because this is the second time I’ve had to buy a code because my card wouldn’t work. Then I was going to go out today, but the weathers been quite crap, and so I decided to sit on my chair in my room and stare out of the window for a few hours, which was actually quite relaxing, then I put the radio on and read my book for a few more hours and now I’m sat in the living room watching Gok Wan on TV - he is the most amazing gay person alive (I really want a gay best friend). Sorry this is so short today, I actually do have a lot on my mind today, but none of it is really suitable for a blog. But do not fear, I shall be my normal chatty self either in a few hours or sometime tomorrow.

Décembre

28th November 2009 -

Oh my god. Town is so terrible at christmas time, you can’t move, plus when your in the shops, you can’t have a proper look because your getting pushed and prodded, so you miss out on very exciting bargains! It’s very distressing. Got locked out of the house today because I forgot my keys and had left my mum and dad in town, then I remembered my sisters at work early today, and so I decided to have a walk to my grandmas to ask for the spare copy of the house key, only to discover that she wasn’t in, neither was my brother, and so I had to stand on my door step (the step was wet so I couldn‘t sit down) for half an hour, watching the birds flying across the houses and watching my sisters cat (who I do not like for very good reasons) purring/rolling over - in other words showing off - at me. I think I went a bit crazy with my spending, I went to get a top I’d seen in New Look, but couldn’t find it - bloody christmas shoppers - so I decided to get three other tops instead (£29) and buy my top over the internet with my mums jacket. Been quite a good day today even though I haven’t really done much except go to town, plus the time has just flown by, but seen as though it’s Sunday tomorrow and not today - which I keep getting confused with - I suppose it doesn’t matter as I can have a very exciting day tomorrow.. Hopefully. I have a feeling that things are going to start getting better, the past couple of weeks have been rather crap, shit to be perfectly honest, but they seem to be looking up. Yay! I plan to go out a lot next week. Got enrichment day on Tuesday, how fun, not. I’ve got maths all day. Think I’m having a DVD night with my mum on Wednesday, Saturday I’m going to get my phone hopefully, and so I’ve got Monday, Thursday, Friday and Sunday to do whatever I want. Woop woop! I’ve decided, seen as though I had to stand in the freezing cold for half an hour, I’m going to force my dad to buy me some credit so that next time I can ring somebody to ask how to get it, I think this is a wonderful idea. Putting the christmas tree up on Tuesday apparently, time is going so fast, usually I’m nagging my mum for ages to put the tree up, then the 1st of December comes around and It’s time to put it up, yet this year, I haven’t even thought about it, I’m worried that I’m turning into scrooge. That’s really not so good.

Effrayant.

27th November 2009 -

Well today has been very good indeed, went to see Paranormal Activity. Woah that film is actually quite scary, especially the ending. It’s Carley’s birthday today, so happy birthday lovie! Found out I’m not getting my phone tomorrow after all, but might be getting it next weekend instead, although that means I’ve got to get it myself and I’ve never bought a phone myself before, eek. Can’t wait to go shopping tomorrow, going to spend, spend and spend! Plus I’ve still got two people to buy christmas presents for, and they’re both so bloody awkward! Although saying that, I never know what to say when people ask what I want for christmas, usually it’s gift cards, but it gets annoying when on christmas day, you’ve got about 15 gift cards and one actual present. It’s quite disappointing.

Cinéma.

26th November 2009 -

I know I’ve already done a blog today, but I went to see New Moon, and didn’t want to miss the opportunity to say how good it was. JACOB GOT NAKED! Well to be fair, he took his top off. But it sent the girls wild in the cinema, so I’m guessing topless is just as good? Oh and so did Edward, but nobody really seemed that bothered. Things I really hate when watching a film at the cinema - People talking about everything that’s happening. My bum going numb. Not being able to snuggle up with a pillow and duvet. Previews. Seeing lots of other films on the previews that you want to see but know you probably wont end up seeing. And not being able to look at your phone without feeling like your going to get arrested or something. But other than that, I love going to the cinema.

I have a feeling, that the next few days are going to be quite good? Starting today, which was really good. Then tomorrow, which I am going to force to be good. Then Saturday which WILL be good! And then Sunday, which probably wont be too good. But at least I had three good days right?

I have cold feet. I’m not saying I’m nervous about something. I literally have cold feet. That’s not too good really. Ok, I’m off to see the wizard, the wonderful wizard of oz. - Fine. Im really off to see the celebrities, the wonderful celebrities of Australia?..

Enseignants.

26th November 2009 -

Okay, on my last blog, I said that I had found some topics to do my blogs about, and so today I am going to pick one to talk about. Seen as though I had my one to one earlier (what a waste of time that was.) I decided to talk about school and teachers. Well, you find that when your younger, you just really can’t be bothered with school, whats the point? When the time comes for your GCSE’s you can just revise then. But that’s not how it works, believe me, I’ve found that out the hard way. When I was in my first couple of years at Balby Carr, I didn’t even try to act like I cared. I got into the wrong crowd and decided I didn’t need any crappy education. Up until the day I realised my “friends” were all trash. Then I realised that those few years that I’d wasted in school, were actually really important, and that I had a lot of catching up to do. And although I tried my best, I knew it would have an impact on my grades. Even now, I find it hard to learn things that most people find basic, and my concentration is really quite despicable to be honest, and it makes me feel like a complete arse sometimes. People may have all types of reasons for not wanting to actually get on with their work in school, whether they find it pointless, are like me and got into a bad crowd that messed them up, or just can’t be bothered. Either way, if your one of those people, you need to listen to me when I say this. It’s really not pointless, all those lessons of boring work may seem like a waste of time, but it’s all that work which is going to get you somewhere in life, so don’t waste your time messing around in lessons. I’m not saying you should sit there like a total nerd, just make sure that when your having fun, your doing your work at the same time. Although I must say, I don’t think it’s the students that are always to blame, the teachers can sometimes be the ones to make you not want to get on with your work. Take my science teacher for example, she always speaks to us like crap, and it just makes you think “why should I do my work for someone who speaks to me like shit?” she’s always having a go at us, even if there’s just someone who’s saying something to a friend, she’ll stop and shout at the whole class, which makes everyone start messing about, it’s really quite annoying to have your teacher shout at you. Lesson after lesson. When you’ve done fuck all wrong. Plus, she always tells the wrong person off, she told Carley off the other day because Craig and Jake were tickling her and making her laugh!? I really do not understand her sometimes..

Idées.

25th November 2009 -

Well, I’m not going to lie, today hasn’t been the best of days, but it has actually been better than most days, which I’m quite happy about, even the rain didn’t spoil my good mood. (Btw Ryan, I think it’s still raining!) Plus my ICT teacher was actually nice to me today - I know right!? Going to see New Moon tomorrow for Carley’s birthday, really quite excited actually. I used to be majorly obsessed with Twilight - I’m not anymore - but I still can’t wait! Also really excited about the `long weekend`. Turns out I get Thursday and Friday off because of one to one day on Thursday, and teacher training on Friday. I really do not understand teacher training days, I mean come on, they’re teachers, surely they already know everything they need to by now? Although I’m not really complaining. It means I get to stay in bed longer. I’m quite worried at the fact that there’s hardly anybody on MSN again. And it’s 19:26! Surely this is unnatural?

I’ve come to notice that my blogs are becoming shorter and less interesting. Maybe I just need more interesting things to talk about? Well, I just put it in on Google, and found another blogger who has very kindly posted 100 blog topics to help people like myself, bless him! So I copied and pasted these ideas into Microsoft Word (as he suggested) and picked out some of my favourites. And unfortunately, out of 100, I only picked 17, but I guess that’s still good, at least I can have 17 interesting blogs right? I have to admit, some of them are actually my own ideas, that I got from his ideas.. If that makes sense. Well anyway, I actually can’t be bothered to write a blog from one of these ideas tonight, but I may just do it tomorrow if I find the time.

Tu me manques.

24th November 2009 -

I’m not really sure what to write about today, nothing spectacular has happened to be honest - except a bitch saying something to me this morning which rather spoilt my good mood, but ahh well - So I think I’ll share one of my worries with you. I’m worried that christmas and new year will be really rubbish. And I hope it isn’t, but if so, I may just decide to hibernate in my room all next year.

I have been thinking about something today. After sixth form, if I have enough money, I have decided to move to America - well either America or London - I’ve always wanted to, but never thought I’d have the balls to actually do it, but I decided, what the hell? If I have the money, I might as well, there’s nothing stopping me, and I’m probably more likely to find journalism work there anyway. I’d obviously miss everyone back home, but I think it’s just something I really need to do. Fresh start and all.

I’ve also decided I need to get out of the house more, I never go out anymore, and even though we never did anything exciting, it was still nice to be out somewhere having a laugh. Where as now, I get home from school. I have my tea. I sit in my room on the laptop. I go in the bath. I watch Im A Celebrity. And then I go to bed. Boring or what!? Plus i'm sure this pattern is sending me crazy..

Btw I told Ryan I’d try and make this interesting, but seen as though it’s not, I’ll make it up to him by mentioning him instead, because I’m just really nice like that you see..

Ryan. I really do think you should use Twitter more.

Débile.

23rd November 2009 -

Okay, today has been quite alright, this morning was pretty rubbish as my ICT teacher really annoyed me by giving me way too much homework to do in a very short space of time, she then moaned at me for not getting my other homework done, which I had to do in class anyway - which is actually her own fault for setting me stupid homework - and then she moaned at me for not coming back after school more often. I mean come on, I know I’m quite good with computers, but I do actually have a life you know! Eugh. But then my day picked up. My 3rd and 4th lessons were spent in the CLC (a building at the back of our school with computers etc.) where I had a really good time listening to a really funny guy called Dean. He told us all about how he did rubbish at school, but went back to re-sit his exams, got really good grades and went into the army. Plus he had a London accent, and at the beginning he said “just to be sure, does anybody think I’m Australian?” which really made me giggle - I haven’t laughed like that in a while. But then dinner time made me a bit, bleh. So in technology, I really could not be bothered with anything, so I just sat there trying to think things over - with my Ipod in, listening to my crappy old songs, seen as I can’t add more due to my silly dad and his silly new (and expensive) computer - trying not to fall asleep. For the whole lesson. And then when I got home, I was told that I had exactly 5 minutes to get dressed and brush my teeth before going with my grandma, to the dentists. Now most of you will be thinking “yeah, so what?” but seriously, when you’ve just got in from school, and your feet are tired/cold/wet you really don’t want to have to be running around you room screaming “WHERE THE FUCK IS MY FUCKING TOOTH BRUSH!?” then realising it’s probably in the bathroom. Where it always is.

Amis.

22nd November 2009 -

Today has also been boring. My weekends used to be very fun, but lately they have basically included, me, my laptop and my bed - all day. Which is why next weekend, I’m planning to go to town with my mum on the Saturday and on the Sunday, I’m not quite sure what I’m doing yet, but hopefully it will be majorly exciting. I cannot spend another Sunday cooped up in my room, by myself, doing absolutely nothing - except maybe cleaning.

I have decided, that for christmas, because I’ve asked for a phone, which is quite cheap, and I get £100 every christmas, I’m going to ask for the Friends box set to go with my phone, which I have wanted forever as I am a very humongous Friends fan.

This isn’t really a long blog entry today, I’m just not really feeling in the mood to type lots today, sorry. By the way, why not visit my other blog site.. www.chloee6.tumblr.com you’ll get to see the more random side of me.

Ennuyeux.

21st November 2009 -

Today has been quite boring, was going to go to town and get myself some pretty things, but the weathers crap, and so I’m going tomorrow. So today, I decided to stay in bed and watch Twilight, which has made me even more excited to go see New Moon next Thursday. I made £45 today and I didn’t even do anything, how amazing is that!? Although I don’t get the other £40 for two weeks and most of it has to be spent on christmas presents - I’ve been selling all my old toys. I’m very happy to finally be getting rid of everything. Barbie dolls with no heads and toy cars without wheels, funnily enough, aren’t my most prized possessions, still got lots of stuff to get rid of though, such fun! Going to the dentist on Monday, hope she doesn’t start having a go at me for not wearing my retainer. I just keep forgetting to put it on before bed, and I hate wearing it during the day anyway, and my teeth don’t seem to be moving, so whats the point? I’m in a really random/talkative mood today, and so I’m going to try making this entry very random and long, so if I suddenly add a random, long word like Kaleidoscope (a cylindrical optical toy with mirrors and shifting colours inside that create coloured patterns)-(wow that dictionary is finally becoming useful) then please excuse me.

Ok, I’ve decided, because it’s only 13:47, I’m going to try and spread this entry out for a few hours, and keep updating you on what I am doing. Right now, I’m watching The Holiday, I was going to watch Twilight again, but I don’t want to start getting obsessed again.. There’s nobody on MSN today, I know it’s a Saturday afternoon, but the weathers crap, I was expecting to have lots of people to talk to. There’s a baby next door who wont be quiet, I’m considering going round there and telling her to shut up, but I don’t think she’d understand me, so instead I’m going to get food. I have sandwiches! But my “updating this throughout the day” plan isn’t going to work as my sister is suddenly in dying need of the laptop, so instead, I will update later on when I get the laptop back and I will inform you of everything I have done, until then.. Au revoir.

I am officialy back, although its now 16:50, and when I upload this onto my blog, you will get to read this all at once, so the fact that I am back on the laptop, wont make any difference to you really. I’m happy because I just found out that I’m going shopping with my mum next Saturday and she’s buying my christmas present for me (Sony Ericsson W302 Indigo) and so I know for sure than im getting it. Plus, even though I have to use my £45 on christmas presents, I only have one or two left to buy, so it shouldn’t come to that much, and so I get to save or spend it. Yay! Disinclination (a reluctance to do something) sorry.. Just felt like a random word moment. I'm going to go listen to Shakira-Did it again, so I hope this entry is much longer than my others..

Sublime.

20th November 2009 -

Okay, I know my blogs seem to be very depressing lately, and so I have found a way to work around this, I am going to write everything that’s going on in my life that may sound depressing, and all my blogs afterwards will try to stick to the good things. Well there’s really only one main bad thing that’s going on, and so I’m going to dedicate this entry to Ryan Clark.. (btw, I hope this blog won’t sound cheesy, sorry if it does, but it has to be said.) Never in my life did I think I would find someone so amazing. Yes, I did think I would find somebody who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, but I always expected it would be much later on in my life, when I’m around 25 and have had (too) much experience with guys. But seriously, this boy is one of the most amazing people I have ever met, I have no idea how I even survived without him. He’s one of those people, who when you find out something funny, you just have to tell him, because the smile that appears on his face is so dazzling, that it brightens up your day, and the things that he says may not be that interesting, yet you listen like it’s the most important thing in the world. I know what your thinking.. “yeah yeah, people say this type of thing all the time, and then next week they’re talking about someone else who’s `amazing` and `fantastic`” but I do not lie - he really is amazing and fantastic. I would actually really just like to thank him for making the past few weeks the most amazing weeks of my life, never have I had so much fun, and had so much to look forward to in such a short space of time, and even though its all over, those memories will never leave me, even when I’m old and wrinkly, I’ll always remember that gorgeous boy who came into my life and made it sparkle. And I know I have no right to say this to him anymore - but I don’t think he’ll read it anyway. I truly do love you, I miss you, and I hate the thought of never getting to kiss you, hug you, or just be with you ever again. My life basically revolves around you now, and no matter how pathetic I seem by saying this, I’m still saying it, which must count for something? And I wish I could show you this, just to prove to you how much I love you, but I know that you blame yourself for how things turned out, so the last thing I want is to make you feel worse. I know you just want me to be happy, but the truth is, I’m happiest with you, and no matter how many times you tell me I’m going to meet someone great and forget all about you, I think that you and I both know that’s not true. But like I said, even if it does come true (which is most certainly will not!) I wouldn’t do anything about it, because no matter how `great` they may be, they’re nothing compared to you.

I love you. I miss you. I hope one day soon, when the time is right, we can be together again. And I really can’t wait.

Vieux gens.

19th November 2009 -

It has not been a good day, in fact your lucky to even be getting a blog out of me. Today I have realised, that probably the best thing that has ever happened to me, has gone, and there’s a chance he’s not coming back - this reality has hit me harder than if I’d have been hit by a bus. So to try and distract myself from this horrible realisation, I’m going to have a rant about old people. Ok I know what your thinking, “what the heck is she on about now” but just let me explain.. Today, young people are seen to be trouble makers, which is totally not the case. Yes, your average teenager is maybe a bit on the wild side, doesn’t mean that’s always a bad thing though, you just have to use this “wild” side, in a more productive way, other than say.. throwing rather large objects at old age pensioners. (no matter how fun\funny this may sound) Instead, other teenagers prefer to spend time with their friends or even be the ones to help the old age pensioners up when they’re hit by the rather large objects, and as unlikely as this may seem, it’s actually true. Just because were a little hormonal and mixed up, doesn’t mean were out to kill somebody - were actually just bored. And I have come to notice, that it is mostly old people who seem to try and stay away from us, like were a disease or something. I can understand why they may get a little frustrated with teenagers, I mean you‘d be frustrated too if you had to put your teeth in a glass every night before bed time, but come on, if they’ve been alive since the war, a few teenagers aren’t exactly going to bother them are they!? This is something that I decided to share with my grandma. I confusingly asked her about it, and being the good grandma that she is, she informed me that although a lot of old people may act that way, she’s not one of them. She said, and I quote “I was once a teenager myself, and I know how hard it is, your body is going through a lot of changes, and it doesn’t help to have hundreds of old people running (or shuffling) towards you with pitch forks and shot guns.” This made me chuckle, and it’s actually quite comforting to know, that if a war did start between teenagers and old people, that I can be 100% sure, my grandma would be on the teenagers side, with her slippers, loaded and ready to kick some OAP arse.

Besoin. Sommeil.

18th November 2009 -

Ok, I said in my last blog that I was going to do a new paragraph about myself, so here goes.. My names Chloe Cherise Wood, I’m 15 and in year 11 at Balby Barr Community Sports and Science College, after this year I plan to stop on at school to do something in journalism and then afterwards, maybe go to New York? New start and all. I like reading, photography, journalism and music. I like a lot of types of music, mostly indie and rock, love Nickleback! My favourite food is still pasta, and flapjacks! I love spending time with my friends, I used to just stay in a lot and go on the laptop, boring! But I actually have a social life now. I also still hate water, plus I hate spiders, oh and I hate being in horrible situations. I find it hard to trust people, a lot of people have let me down, and I’d say that if you lose my trust, there’s a good chance your not getting it back. I started growing my hair last year, and decided it didn’t suit me, so I cut it really short, but now I’ve decided to try growing it again, ready for prom, so that I can have it really curly. Excited for prom, I wasn’t going to go, but I decided, I’ll only get one chance to go, and I’ll regret it if I don’t. I like meeting new people, I can sometimes be quite shy at first, but I’ll open up more once I get used to you. I love surprises, and although I’ll annoy people to tell me the surprise, deep down, I don’t want to know. Somehow, I’ve managed to become even more dirty minded, I have no idea how that happened, I’m just too cool. I never used to be much of a dare devil, but I’ve actually become more open minded to trying new things. I’m not really sure what else to put about myself. I’d try and extend it, but I’m tired, and have had a long day, so I’m going to sleep now. Any questions? Please ask.

Oh mon dieu.

17th November 2009 -

Ok, I know I’ve already done a blog today, but I just remembered that I found something on my laptop that really made me chuckle, and I thought after my last blog, I should share this with you all, ok here goes. Last year, on my Bebo, I did a very long paragraph about myself, but then when I decided to take it off, I thought I should probably keep it, just incase I decided to put it back on, I then forgot about it, and a year later, here it is, packed away in a long ago forgotten folder, and I thought that you, my loyal readers, should get a chance to know the old me. By the way, I apologise for the use of strong language, apparently I had a swearing problem. “Well I'm Chloe Cherise Wood, I'm 14 and from Doncaster, I was born on the 25th august 1994. Im in year 10 at Balby Carr and I can’t wait to finish and go on to college where I will take a photography course. I love my family but they can be such arses sometimes, I have two nephues and a nephew on the way. Im addicted to msn, Bebo etc, im such a computer nerd. I love music, Kings Of Leon, Lady Gaga, Kevin Rudolf that sort of thing. My favourite food is pasta, I also love flapjacks. I don’t try and be someone im not because then I wouldn’t be living my life, I try to live my life to the fullest although I don’t really like trying new things (it scares me) I’m not a dare devil and I wont do anything im not comfortable with, I hate water so you’d be lucky to even get me in a pool. I change my mind about things a lot and im bad at making decisions, I usually get people to make them for be which is so much easier, but I have made a lot of mistakes, some I've learnt from and some I really wish I hadn’t of done, but that’s life, you make mistakes. I'm not very tall, and I hate it, people think they can take the piss all the time. I also hate it when people talk behind my back, what’s the point? They’re just scared to say it to my face which is honestly pathetic. Hate it when lads think they can just get a shag out of a lass and that they don’t care, not all girls are like that. My fave shops are New Look, Primark and Peacocks, love my bargains. I like my make up, but I hate it when people put lots on, it just looks.. sluttish. I hate the cold, although I like playing in the snow, as I'm sure most people do. Im growing my hair, so hopefully it will look decent for my prom. I’m not very good with advice, ill try and help people, but it doesn’t work, I give people advice which I would never actually do myself. I love meeting new people, I’m usually very shy but once I get to know you I will get louder. I find it very hard to trust people, loose my trust and im certain you’ll never get it back. I like surprises, but I always ruin them. I love Skegness even though its crap. Im very dirty minded, I'm always thinking someone said something sexual when they didn’t. I hate liers, whats the point in lying or pretending when you can just be loved for who you are and if people don’t love you for who you are then fuck them, they’re just jealous. I get confused easily. I have a lot of close friends, they mean so much to me and they're always there for me when i need some advice or I’m upset about something, they always know how to cheer me up and I know they will never judge me, I love you's.” Seriously, how funny is that? I can’t believe how much I’ve changed, I sound like such a chav on that. eugh! By the way, I have changed some of my spelling “mistakes” on this, I didn’t think words like “tho” belonged on my pretty new blog site. I think that because I’ve shown you this, tomorrow, I will have to write a new one, just so that you get an idea about the old me, but that you also get to know the new me. If there are any questions about this blog, which I actually hope there is, I’d be really interested to answer them, so please don’t be afraid to ask.

Heureux.

17th November 2009 -

I have recently (in the past 5 minutes) decided that I’m going to try my very best to forget about everything and be happy. Life is too short to be worrying about the bad things, and although I am finding it really hard to have fun, I just need to distract myself, and think about the good things. There’s just one thing I need to say before I do.. I’d just really love to thank my friends and family for putting up with me, love them all lots. Right, now for the happy stuff. I have finally found something to do with my life, I’m thinking of becoming a journalist, and I know this means I’m going to have to work my arse off in English now, but I am actually really prepared to do that. I have also found a few new songs, which always cheers me up, New Moon comes out this week, and I’m going to see it for Carley’s birthday next week. Plus! my mum very kindly got me a chocolate fudge brownie Frijj. Yay! That’s about it for the good parts of my day, sorry this is so short, but I will make good things happen tomorrow, and inform you of them right away!

Merde.

16th November 2009 -

Today. Has not been the best. If it wasn’t for my friends (Carley in particular) trying to cheer me up, I think this day would have been a total bust. Firstly, I woke up and was freezing my socks off. Then I realised there was a storm of rain happening outside. Meaning that when I got to my friend Laurens house, my hair wasn’t exactly looking it’s best. Then I get to school, and remember we’ve got assembly (15 minutes of a young “funny” guy trying to cheer us all up. Not really my idea of fun.) After this, I had to sit and read chapter 2 of “Of Mice And Men” for an hour in English (I went on the internet on my phone which was hidden behind my book.) I then went to ICT, which is supposedly one of my favourite subjects. Not today. The highlight of that lesson was when I went hyper from annoying my friend Craig. He acts like he hates me. but really he loves it. Maths was then my next crappy subject of the day, and with my normal maths teacher (who I like) away on maternity leave, we had a very boring bald guy. I’m not sure I like him. Hes quite weird. Then I had history, which just dragged to be honest. The class watched a film. I was sleeping. My last lesson of the day was business, and although I got a lolly pop (orange. My favourite!) It still wasn’t enough to cheer me up. I think the best part of the day was probably going to Carley’s house, and although we got ourselves into a bit of a sticky situation halfway through the night, I still had a good time. And I’d actually just like to thank her for putting up with my bad moods lately, I think most people would have given up on me by now, and would tell me to shut up, but Carley has been a real trooper, she’s stuck by my side and has really tried her best to cheer me up, and although I still may not be in the best of moods, she has really made me laugh tonight, that girl is so crazy! But it’s why I love her <3

Famille.

15th November 2009 -

Today I have been watching P.S. I Love You. I have never been the sort of person to cry at films, yet for some reason or other, this film, plus Titanic, are always sure to bring a tear to my eye. I think this could be because of the amount of loneliness that is captured in these films, especially in P.S. I Love You. Holly, (Hilary Swank) is left by her childhood sweetheart, Gerry, (Gerard Butler) when he horribly dies, the result of a tumour, and she tries to deny the fact that he has gone forever. Gerry tries to gently guide her to move on, by sending her a series of letters each month, everyone of them ending in "PS. I Love You". But Holly is then torn apart, when the letters finally stop, and even though she knew they couldn’t possible continue forever, she still feels that a part of her is gone. This is when her mother steps in, after Holly’s father chose to leave her mother when Holly was just an early age, she realises, that on some level, her mother can relate to what she is going through, and goes to her for that extra bit of support that she needs. This film has made me realise just how important my family are to me, because you really don’t know when life is just going to end, and although I may not have the best relationship with my family, I think it’s about time that I made more of an effort to built the relationship, between my mother in particular. Out of all the members of my family, I am definitely closest to my grandmother, she is the most warm and caring grandma you can find, and I know I can tell her anything. Heck, I could tell her I was pregnant, and she would probably help me in every way possible, infact she’s more like my second mother than my grandma, which is why I think I need to try and build the relationship with my mother, I have always had a good relationship with her, but as im getting older, I wish it was a stronger relationship, one where she was more like my best friend rather than my mum, and although sometimes, she gets on my nerves, and I wish she would just leave me alone, I know, deep down, my life would not be the same without her, without all of my family. And although I wish I saw my extended family more often and that wish I were closer to some of my family members, I think I really am lucky to have them, and I wouldn’t change them for the world.

Amour.

14th November 2009 -

Over the past few weeks, I have come to realise, that some people really do need someone in their life to be there for them, and to have that unconditional love, I am one of those people. I can now safely say that I have someone in my life who I want to be with forever, I couldn’t stand being with anybody else, and it breaks my heart to think of him as “just a friend”. But I have also come to realise, that to be in a relationship, you have to think of the other person, it’s like having a baby, it’s no longer just you, you have someone else to think about, someone else's thought and feelings to take into consideration, so the things you do in your life, now also affect somebody else, and you have to be very careful when making decisions, you can't be selfish, but you can't be too giving, the balance has to be right, else it could ruin everything. At this moment in time, my life is complicated, I am going through a patch, where I have everything I could ever want, and it has been fantastic, I have already had some of the most amazing experiences of my life, but over the past few days, it’s already started to get messed up, and I already feel like my amazing guy is slipping away from me. I am the sort of person, who when in a sticky situation, I can usually be quite good at finding a way to sort things out, but this is all happening faster than I am having time to process it and find a way around it, and I have been taken out of my comfort zone. I have only known this amazing guy for around two months, and I already love him more than I can even imagine, I love him so much that it hurts to even think about loosing him, and if I could, I would tell him this as much as possible, and in every way imaginable. He is my life now, I thank him so much for everything hes done for me, and I know that I am so lucky to have finally found him, I just hope that I can hold onto him long enough for him to realise this.